[tidus]

well. here goes nothing..

yesterday july 19th,07, i was rushed to the E.R. due to sevre headaches. they ran a cat scan on my head, i have a brain tissue deterating which is full of Blood or spinal fluid. they called the nuero sergeon and asked him what he thinks the cause was. they said it's due to making to many punches to the head. the blood is 4-6 weeks old or older. i box A LOT. havn't been beaten yet.. i was training to be in the UFC. but that will not happen now. one blow to the head can kill me... the surgeon was out at home when he looked at the cat scan results. now on Monday, at 3:30 p.m. i have to go to his office to get an opperation to remove the access fluids in my head. the sergeon is the 65th best in the world, and he invented the hearing aid. i am 17 years old, i turn 18 next month. it's sorta fucked up that a 17 year old is about to go under procedures that 80 years old go though... it makes me relize how life can go just like that... i've been with my girlfriend for 3 years now. i have no IDEA how to break the news to her... so i just thought i'd inform you guys on a bit of information of my life..

[kinger]

damn man. goodluck.

if anyone posts anything rude in this thread your banned. have respect.

[tidus]

thanks kinger.

[Gary]

TiDuS, I don't really know you bro but I hope that you come out alright and that you will be able to be fully functionally that must be a hard time for you and your family, I just hope that everything turns out ok because I am good friends with your brother and I know he'd be devastated if something happened so In others words, come back soon and I hope you will be Ok. Good Luck Man, I'll be praying for you.

Etc.

[Christmas]

Best wishes to you. I, like you, enjoy life young and try to live it up best I can and can only hope that you'll be able to do same even with this problem you're facing. It sucks and I don't know why it happens to some and not others even when they've probably taken more shots to the head. I don't know.

I'm not good with appraisal but know that I hope the best for you bro. Goodluck.

[Trauma]

Sup Matt this is CJ as u know man thats a raw story dude im so sry to hear that this is going on. U got alot of heart bro and i hope to see u back here soon.Speaking for my whole guild man, we r praying for u bro.Good Luck with the precedure and hope to see u soon.


Ur Boy

-CJ- :cry:

[tidus]

thanks guys.. i appreciate your apathy & sympathy.. i may talk a lot of shit on HB. but thats to piss ya off haha. it's all a pyschological attack... but when it really comes down to it i appericate it..

[BLOWN]

Whats up Bro Toke here. best of luck with your operation bro. I believe you should tell youre girl about youre opration as soon as you can, you cant wait to long for it you know.

Peace out-

[tidus]

thanks toke.

i can't toke it up ne more.. it blows. but ill tell her tomorrow.

[tidus]

it's weird... i havn't seen respect like this from friends arcoss the world ever... you know what makes a guild a guild? it's like a family... family comes first no matter what.. i've seen my brother, Michael, go to a rehab facility and never told a word about me or steven... i;ve seen my dad go to jail because he knocked a girl out who came after me when i was 10. family will always stick together and nothing will break it apart... sorta like the strongest guild in this game. smoke on my lvl. no matter what they stick together and have each others back and figbt for what they believe in... the only reason i even started this topic was because on Friday, before i went to the hospital. i walked outside to go get steven from drivers ed. i saw an 18 year old kid draw back at a fucking 9 year old. a 9 YEAR OLD. 9 years difference..i saw that, dropped my keys and elbowed him in the head, i ALMOST got punched in the head. he missed and got laid out... on the way back, i tripped on an oil spill in the parking lot hit my head on the ground. and went inside and explained to my dad my head was fucked up. when that kid swung at me, i now relize i would be in the hospital or dead.... this is why i am sharing my story with you guys, and im truely thankful to have this much respect from all of you.

get on my lvl guildmembers - you guys have much love from me...

[Trauma]

Word dude u r always in the hearts of smoke on my lvl mine especially bro :cry:

[Gary]

No matter what Matt, you will be my bro forever I got your back and if that fucking 18 kid messed with you I'd put that fat fucker to the ground and kick the shit out of him. But what you said about the guild is true and the family isn't set unless you're there. Like CJ said, you're in the hearts of Smoke On My Level, you're also in the hearts of yours truely.

Etc :cry:

P.S. I sort of cried when I read what happened. I don't care if you guys think I'm a pussy for crying but if that happened to someone at a young age then you have to feel sorry and a little guilty for his troubles so if you guys want to call me a pussy for crying go for it. Atleast I am man enough to admit that shit.

[Bloodsho]

fuck tidus...i love oyu man...hope everything ends up well

[Paste]

74: Keep that kind of questions far away from this topic!

[Bloodsho]

74: I agree that Paste's post was unnecessary, but please do not insult anyone in this topic. Thank you.

[Dragonis]

dude that totally sucks, i hope everything goes ok

[Enter]

sad to see this this ..
u could just sit back and enjoy every moment with her.
hope u get well soon so u guys can get married

[nOObsOda]

Good luck tidus althought we mouth dueled in game haha
but , game is game no hard feeling may the god bless u

[Seiferoth]

Damn tidus that sucks im deeply sorry to hear that and i can start to understand how you feel. Last year i was put in the hospital for a tumor the size of an average cell phone that was getting dangerously close to my spinal cord. Im lucky i got it checked in time and from what ive read Your lucky to have your head looked at as well, who knows when that last blow woulda came if u hadnt. Hang in the bro and Take care. Even though its a online video game its still a community and were pushin for ya.

[Duality]

Well, good luck to you man
hope to see you back soon

dw, you'll be fine